Lama Rinchen Palmo got me here to Le Jardin de Meditations in Beaumont on Saturday, so I've spent three nights here and one morning. It always takes a couple of days to settle in, but this time was easier than the last time in June ... well, I know the place and some of the folk here recognise me.
I'm staying in the cabin in the photie and it's hard to think of a better place to do a wee retreat. There's a small porch and the wifi reaches there from the big house and you can sit here when it's raining due to the over hanging roof. It's unbelievable really that I've landed here in such a place. The charge is 50 euros a night, but you don't spend any money otherwise, so it's only really costing me about 20 euros more than I'd have spent at home. Of course, if you haven't got twenty euros, it's a lot of money, but it's affordable for me.
I feeling a wee bit exhilerated just now. I managed to meditate for three hours before lunch, and it's far easier to meditate than it used to be. It's like long distance road running. If you're not fit, it can be murder, but if you're fit, it's quite enoyable. But these meditations have been much better than that!
The inner heat is definitely coming on. I can't believe it because I don't feel like I deserve it. I'm basically a moron stumblebumming about the place, but supported by geniuses. Lama Rinchen Palmo has been a fabulous help.
To get this Deity Yoga business right, you have to eventually feel as if you are a deity in a mandala, and I think that's not going to be possible for me. For one thing, I don't believe in deities, but I am trying my best! I suppose you'd have to do a proper long retreat and hide away from the world for some time.If I don't make any more progess with the bliss and the heat I got this morning, that'll be fine. I am a very fortunate creature!
The only bugger is that I'm 74 years old already. It must be a much better life if you get all this done when you are young. But c'est la vie. I'm not complaining. I've been getting loads of bliss for over thirty years.
Even if I wasn't making much progress, or any, doing retreats is just so good for you. In the last day or two, I've felt that all my anxieties and worries are being shed. Also, I'm sleeping much better (definitely helped by the lack of booze!!)
There's a statscounter thing on this blog, so you can see if it's been hit. I only come here when I see that Michelle has landed on it from Spain, but for the last few days there's been a ton of hits from Singapore. There's too many for it to be a person. What could a machine want with this blog?
I've got seventeen days to go. Hurrah!
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