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If the heat is coming, it's not here yet! But yesterday when I sat down for the first meditation and soon took a deep breath, I knew that something had changed. This feeling has been happening all year, maybe once every month. When this happens, you tend to feel a bit surprised and maybe exhilerated, but after a wee while you become habituated to this new state, and it all gets a bit humdrum again.
So the meditations are developing nicely, and so I can have no complaints. But when I'm not meditating things are sometimes a little dull. Like today, when the weather is wet, windy and cold, and you don't really feel like going up to the hut.
It's a bit of a trade off. The meditations work better when you behave yourself, but behaving yourself is boring, and you can't meditate all the time, not yet anyway.
I do feel I am bound for glory quite a lot, but life is also a little dull. I've been single since January, so this has made me more isolated. More isolation means better meditations, but it has a cost. This year I've been getting by on about one adult conversation a week ... I've been going to see my grandson and daugher most weekends.
I haven't been sending out emails to literary agents since the New Year. Amazingly, someone actually replied to one and the book was sent to New York, but there's been total silence since. Anyway, I'll start sending the odd email from now on since there's nothing else for it.
This year is going to be special. The connection between the breath and the inner channels is firming up. Let's hope it's not a case of watch out what you wish for!!!
